Grape Ape

Stuck In This God Forsaken House

I wanna get away.
Get away from the people called Mom & Dad.
All they do is yell.
All they do is scream.
Trying to take over my life.
Won't let me have the freedom I beg for.
The freedom I crave.

I'm afraid to love.
Afraid that I'll get hurt.
Afraid that I'll hurt someone again.
Can you blame me?
Been hurt mentally.
Physically I seem to be fine.

On the inside I hurt.
Try not to show it.
It seems like, no matter what I do, you can see it.

I wanna run away from my troubles. 
My feelings.
Keeping myself in a vice.

It's like a stab in the heart.

Driven Up theWall

You haunt my thoughts
You are my fears materialized
My heart forever breaking, thinking of you
I wonder why I still bother.

Everytime we talk there's something different in your voice
I'm always finding out new things about you
Everytime from different people.

You make me want to scream
I want to hurt myself
If I do, there will be noone to pick up my broken body.

A Blah Attempt at a Poem

you've angered me

you've loved me

but was it real?

or just pretend?

was it sympathy?

you saved me from myself

you were my knight

like a falling star

you brought my hopes crashing down

you were my everything

i wanted to tell you everything

but you stopped them from ever seeing the light of day

you're just a coward in disguise

you think you aren't like everyone else

but you really are

you believe in conformity

you'd rather support them

than secretly be against them

we don't want to be like you!

we don't want to be conformist clones like the rest of you!

so just leave me alone!

I Won't Forgive You

There are days when you seem to like me

and some when you don't

you liked me for who I was

i liked you for you

until you tried to get into my pants

i won't forgive you for that

we are still friends

i set you up with one of my friends

but you betrayed her

i won't forgive you for that

i used to trust you

what the hell happened?

you almost sold my friend's guitar

i won't forgive you for that either

you hate everything i am now

you say i've changed.

you've changed too.

The Rocker Crush

comforting to look at

comforting to talk to

but i don't know you

wish i did

try as i might

that'll never happen

you are one of my favorites

i'll never meet you personally

i can look at you from afar

but will never be able to touch

i dream of you always

they say that i'll never date a person like you

they dissapprove of how you look

why do they care?

they're not crushing on you!

tatoos

peircings

rocker hair

chains

things they stereotype as bad

you aren't

wish i could hear you in more than songs on a CD

just wishing you knew me

and were here with me

Untitled Poems

Always I walk in a dreamlike state

Evicting everything the outside world offers from me.

I don't want to believe the hardships of the present

Love always hides from view

Hate keeps coming back

Trust never stays.

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My memory of you was like a dream

You turned into my nightmare.

You didn't have the strength to hold back

You'll never have it.

You posses facist thoughts

Soon you won't remember them

They'll beat it out of you into a bloody pulp.

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Crying wax tears on my pillow

Listening to your voice on the radio

All I can think of is you.

Their words are all lies to me

They mean nothing

Always wishing you were here.

You exsist in my brain as a figment of my imagination

You posses a bodily form never even close to me.

Everyone knows you

You'll never know me.